que sera, sera.

wow i haven't blogged in a while. and don't worry, this isn't gonna be a long one... i just decided to put something up because i finished "the joy luck club" last night, and i needed to do something while my brain wound down.

i'm officially all done with my classes for the term... but two finals, one paper and two or three more appl-ick-ations (i'm thinking two, but i'm also thinking two's kinda reckless) before i can celebrate.

it was funny that the only "last class" that i felt sad about was my ballet class. since i was gonna be ballet-deprived for a few weeks (i'm taking it again next term!) i decided to try stuff i didn't think i could do well enough to do... and ended up doing three almost-perfect double pirouettes, which i think is my new lifetime record for one class.

i got my official gre results, and did worse on the writing than i thought i did. better on the verbal than i expected though, percentile-wise. hopefully they balance out. i had a grad school application all put together to meet the deadline (yesterday/today - the 5th), and got an email from the professor on the 3rd saying she wasn't accepting doctoral candidates for next year's intake. then again, i was already thinking of not applying, so maybe that worked out for the best.

i've been neglecting people, and am very thankful for their understanding. i'm doing my best. but sometimes i still wonder if i'm doing it right... if someone else in my position would be able to perform a better juggling act.

i'll end with the song i didn't get to dance to, because i was cooking nasi lemak, rendang, kurma, bak choy and bubur cha cha for 20 people =):

"when i was just a little girl,
i asked my mother, what will i be?
will i be pretty? will i be rich?
here's what she said to me:

que sera, sera,
whatever will be, will be
the future's not ours to see
que sera,sera."

que sera sera, doris day.

my class performed to the version by pink martini, not the original, and if you can you should listen to it. i love it.
haunting.