Sunday 30 August 2009

change the battery pack.

whew. after 11 awesome days in australia followed by ying's 21st birthday festivities... i need sleep! no clubbing and alcohol for two to three weeks please thanks. it was a blast though. i got to partay with people i grew up with but never saw intoxicated before, dance with friends i hadn't seen in years, and just let my guard down a little more than usual.

thank you to all the people in australia who made my visit there amazing, especially miss tham waiping, miss lim su yin and mr matt ding "sw".

happy 21st to miss val khoo, who's coming back real soon!
happy 21st to miss ong li teng, whom i still have yet to play badminton with!
and happy, happy 21st to miss lim shwe ying! love you loads babe, and i'm glad you had a good one. =)

"i know that we'll have a ball
if we get down and go out
and just lose it all

i feel
stressed out i wanna let it go
let's go way out, spaced out
and losing all control."

- i've gotta feeling, the black eyed peas.

Saturday 22 August 2009

boom boom pow.

"is it some hot guy and some hot chick ar?"

"is it... confirm!"

haha.

Thursday 20 August 2009

cry me a river.

"waiting is painful. forgetting is painful. but not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering."

- by the river piedra, paulo coelho.

some decisions you feel worse about as time goes on.
some decisions you feel more at peace with.
and there are always still more decisions to be made.

Tuesday 18 August 2009

whirlwind.

in the past four days i've spent in australia, i've been to melbourne, newcastle, the blue mountains and sydney.
in the past four nights i've spent in australia, i've slept in a different room and bed and showered in a different bathroom every night.

i've eaten more than i should.
i've slept less than i should.
i've gotten angrier than i've been in a long time.
i've met up with people i haven't seen in years.
i haven't gotten sick of jiat yet, despite spending more time with him than i ever have in my life lol.
i haven't talked to anthea since she got to nebraska!
i've been to so many gorgeous places.
and i'm with yin(!), ning jia(!), sammy(!) and jiat (*yawn*) right now!

one week to go! =D

Wednesday 12 August 2009

zomg lollersk8s roflcopter.

anthea's leaving for the land of cornfields TODAY!
i had to get out all my warm stuff so i could pack for australia, cos i'm leaving TOMORROW!
i finally finished putting together three scholarship applications i've been working on FOREVER!
so hopefully someone will bequeath me some moolah SOON!
because i'll be leaving for cambridge in A MONTH AND A HALF!
pitbull is EVERYWHERE!
but his music is pretty catchy so it's OKAY!
i just wish his lyrics weren't so... QUESTIONABLE!

"forget about your boyfriend, and meet me at the hotel room
you can bring your girlfriends, and meet me at the hotel room [x2]
we at the hotel, motel, holiday inn [x4]."

- hotel room service, pitbull.

and that's not the worst of it, BY FAR!

Sunday 9 August 2009

cable car.

so in hindsight, i probably shouldn't have reacted the way i did. well, i guess that wasn't really within my control - what i mean to say is i shouldn't have acted on my reaction the way i did. i shouldn't have allowed myself to get sucked into it.

was it really that big a deal? not at all. what have i accomplished? not much. just that i can now do unto you what you did unto me without worrying about the repercussions as much as i would have had you not "done unto me" in the first place. did i inadvertently fan flames i cannot guarantee fuel for? maybe. did i then quench the spark necessarily, unceremoniously and abruptly? probably.

should i care? of course i should. how can i not?

how much should i care? now that's the question, isn't it?

you didn't think.

okay.

"take time to realize
that your warmth is crashing down on in
take time to realize
that i am on your side
didn't i, didn't i tell you?"

- realize, colbie caillat.

Friday 7 August 2009

just for a thrill.

"he doesn't want better, he just wants you!"

Thursday 6 August 2009

grief counseling.

"there are five stages to grief which are... denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. and right now, out there, they are all denying the fact that they're sad. and that's hard and it's making them all angry. and it is my job to get them all the way through to acceptance. and if not acceptance, then just depression. if i can get them depressed then i will have done my job."

- michael scott, the office (season three)

Wednesday 5 August 2009

we'll take a cup o' kindness yet.

it's always a pleasant surprise when i meet up with someone i haven't seen in years, and we can talk about things important to us knowing that the other will understand and respect what we're sharing. it's also amazing to see how and how much the other has grown, as well as discover and rediscover things you like and admire in the person.

and of course, it's always, always refreshing and rewarding to sit down with a close friend to talk and laugh about anything and everything. =)

"should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind?
should auld acquaintance be forgot
and auld lang syne?"

- auld lang syne, robert burns.

i like the version by mairi campbell and dave francis, pronounced the scots' way.

Tuesday 4 August 2009

The Look.

'since you sat down, you've convinced me that i don't believe enough, that i'm a chain smoker, that i drink too much, and that i should chop off my tail.'

i laughed.

'have you ever burnt an insect to death?'

no.

what? what else have i convinced you of now?

'that i'm sadistic.'

"but i would walk five hundred miles
and i would walk five hundred more
just to be the man who walked a thousand miles
to fall down at your door."

- five hundred miles, the proclaimers.

Monday 3 August 2009

today:

1. i started cleaning out my room.
2. i watched center stage. yay ballet!
3. i had lunch with my sister who's leaving to nebraska in 9 days!
4. i played badminton.
5. i played table tennis.
6. i played squash.
7. i swam.
8. i heard some sad news about someone i didn't really know that affects someone close to me.
9. i met up with jiat to discuss our upcoming trip to melbourne and sydney. 10 days and counting!
10. i skyped with mel.
11. i realized that i am in malaysia, but my weather widget was set to cambridge and my date and time on my computer and blog were still set to PST, so i changed them all. more living in the present, less living in the past and future.
12. I DIDN'T NAP!
13.ialsodidn'tworkonmyscholarshipapplicationsbutiwillhaveitdonesoonipromise.

more days like today please and thank you.

"sing to me the song of the stars
of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
when it feels like my dreams are so far
sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again."

- only hope, switchfoot.