this free fall's, got me so.

i think i'll need another holiday after this one. it's been a lot of fun, i've been productive, and i've also had one or two days of doing absolutely nothing... but somehow i don't feel rested. i'm tired.

all in all, my year at cambridge (bar the last month) felt like more of a holiday than these past three months. there's irony for you.

birds can fly so high and they can shit on your head.

so i've reached that point again when i go, "right, i'm done with this. what's next?"

there's only so much sitting around i can do.

hit me baby one more time.

i was in the car with shwe ying when britney spears was played on the radio...
so we did the only thing we could have done: turn it way up and sing along at the top of our lungs. good stuff. =)

"sometimes i run
sometimes i hide
sometimes i'm scared of you
but all i really want is to hold you tight
treat you right
be with you day and night
baby all i need is time."

- sometimes, britney spears.

both of best worlds.

i think it's interesting how the familiar can become unfamiliar and the unfamiliar can become familiar.
and how sometimes we get tired of the familiar and start to look for the unfamiliar in the familiar.
and how sometimes we try to look for the familiar in the unfamiliar.
and how none of the above is necessarily good or bad.
sometimes the unfamiliar becomes so familiar that you fear it becoming unfamiliar again.
and sometimes the familiar is so familiar that you forget it is familiar.
and you wonder how much unfamiliarity will make you miss familiarity.
and how much familiarity will be needed to balance out the unfamiliarity.
and also, perhaps, how much unfamiliarity is needed to recognise familiarity.

infinity plus one.

"beribu bintang di langit kini menghilang
meraba aku dalam kelam
rembulan mengambang, kini makin suram
pudar ilhamku tanpa arah

izinkan ku mencuri bayangan wajahmu
izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu

maafkanlah oh, andai lagu ini menganggu ruangan hidupmu
kau senyumlah oh, sekadar memori kita di arena ini

kau ilhamku."

- kau ilhamku, man bai.

serais ce possible alors?

of the three times i've come home after being away for a year, this time i feel the most different.

"eu sei e você sabe que a distância não existe
que todo grande amor só é bem grande se for triste
por isso, meu amor, não tenha medo de sofrer
que todos os caminhos me encaminham pra você...

assim como viver
sem ter amor não é viver
não há você sem mim
e eu não existo sem você."

- eu não existo sem você, tom jobim e vinicius de moraes.