the knew.

"another turning point a fork stuck in the road
time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go
so make the best of this test and don't ask why
it's not a question but a lesson learned in time."

- good riddance, green day.

i'm on the cusp of yet another transitory stage in my life. i have a feeling this is gonna be a big one. i'm incredibly excited, but at the same time i'm feeling some degree of apprehension. it's a different kind of change i'm facing, different from my adventure in kolkata, arrival in eugene and sojourn in palo alto. it's different because in this case, i'm not going somewhere entirely new where i have no idea what to expect or whom im going to meet. it's different because this time, i'm going back to a place i've been, to people i know and experiences i've had. it's different because when i was going somewhere new there weren't many, if any, expectations from and of myself.

it's scary not just because i don't know what has changed, but also because i don't know what hasn't changed. i don't know what i want to be different and what i don't. and i don't know how much i have or haven't grown.

there are memories on the line. i guess when it comes down to it, i don't fear what i don't know as much as i fear what i don't know about what i knew.

that being said, i'm still excited! three days left in palo alto.